Kama: Devadasi Escort

A Macedonian ex-interior minister has been charged over the deaths of seven South Asian immigrants, alleged at the time to have been Islamic militants.
A prosecutor said Ljube Boskovski ordered the killings months after the 9/11 attacks to earn US recognition as a partner in the "war on terror".
Macedonian officials later said the six Pakistanis and one Indian had been killed in a "staged" encounter.
Mr Boskovski, who denies the charge, has been living in Croatia since 2004.
Croatian authorities arrested him late last year, acting on a warrant issued by Macedonia, and will try him there.
A prosecutor in northwestern Croatia said Mr Boskovski has been charged with "having orchestrated and carried out the murder of seven economic immigrants in order to prove to the US that Macedonia was participating in the international war on terrorism".

What is so deeply disturbing was his presumption that South Asians were so valueless that they could be murdered for his convenience. When societies considered migrants to be a dangerous threat they help create the circumstances in which men like Ljube Boskovski feel they can act with impunity.

A centuries-old caste of sacred temple servants, the Devadasi were talented dancers, singers and political advisors married to the Hindu deities. In addition to performing sacred temple ceremonies, Devadasis often offered sexual services. Core to Devadasi belief is that all men are incarnations of the male deities and that a man who makes love to a Devadasi becomes divine as the couple enacts the sacred marriage of god and goddess. Many Devadasi practices were outlawed in India in the mid-1940s. Most academics, human rights groups and feminist advocates view the Devadasi as a serious social problem, as forced prostitutes victim to poverty, misogyny and lack of resources. Kama, a university student in London working as a Devadasi escort near Heathrow, London, is actively working towards a Devadasi renaissance. Here is her first published interview.

According to official figures, more than 1,000 people, mainly Muslims, were killed in the riots.
Human rights groups put the death toll much higher.

As a Hindu who has experienced descrimination while living in Bangladesh I am fully aware that the Hindi can be just as bad when they have the upper hand by being the overhwhelming majority. The group mentaility that seems to affect people when they are the majority seems to then justify almost any excess as long as it is directed towards the "other".

I actually think attititudes to migrants in Europe are often just a more sophisticated and rationalised expression of this type of xenophobia.

It is so strange, the British are very suspicious of the Romanians, the Romanians really don't like the Turks, the Turks can't stand the Kurds, the Kurds are not keen on the Iranians, the Iranians don't like the Indians, the Indians do not like the Bangladeshi, the Bangaldeshis treat the Rohingya like dogs, the Rohingya do not like the Burmese, they do not like the Thai who do not like the Khymer and so it goes on. I think it would be possible to go round the world several times using xenophobic connections as the discordant link between the various nations.

Everyone seems to be so upset that they are prejudicially treated by someone else, but not many seem to be taking action to address their own prejudices and xenophobia!

If I wanted to treat Muslims badly, why should I be surprised if someone then wants to use my identity as an excuse to treat me badly?

ARASH SIGARCHI HAS BEEN ARRESTED
Reporters Without Borders reports that journalist and blogger Arash Sigarchi, of the blog Panhjareh Eltehab, has been arrested.According to the group, Sigarchi was arrested on January 17, after responding to a summons from the intelligence ministry in the northern city of Rashat. He has been held at Rashat's Lakan Prison where he has been denied the right to see a lawyer and bail has been set at 200 million rials (about $25,000 U.S.). The authorities have put pressure on his mother to deny that her son has been arrested.His weblog had been banned by authorities in Iran for speaking out against recent arrests of cyberjournalists and bloggers (see below) and is inaccessible within the country. In addition to his blog, he is the editor of the daily Gylan Emroz. A few days before his arrest he was interviewed by two foreign radio stations, the BBC World Service and Radio Farda.On August 27 of last year he was imprisoned for several days for an article, illustrated with photographs, of a rally in Tehran by families of prisoners who were executed in 1989.Nearly 20 people have been arrested over the past three months in a crackdown against the online press. Apart from Sigarchi, another weblogger, Mojtaba Saminejad (see below), is still in prison.At the start of January, Tehran's prosecutor-general, Said Mortazavi, ordered Internet Service Providers to block the main weblogs - Orkut, Nedstat, Blogspot, Persianblog, Blogrolling and others. Iranian Internet-users are now almost entirely cut off from the blogsphere.We join RWB in condemning this continued oppression by the Iranian government and in calling on those countries taking part in the World Summit on the Information Society to officially condemn these repeated breaches of freedom of expression. Iran is due to send a delegation to the upcoming preparatory meeting in Geneva next month.

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What I think is strange is that so many people in the UK are worried about soveriegnty being surrendered to Brussels, when every British citizen is now being policed by the USA and can be dragged off to prison in the USA and then be dragged through a long legal process for a something that might not even be a crime in the UK.

The USA does not need to show probable cause to extradite anyone in the UK, but the British government must still show such probable cause if it wants to extradite an American citizen.

So every day you live in Britain you are only there because the US government lets you.

France and Germany do not allow the US Government such licence.

I wonder what British people think of this arrangement?

Police in Bangladesh have raided the home of an opposition leader and seized copies of two books he has published.
Abu Sayeed of the Awami League Party said plainclothes police entered his house without warning.
The books chart the rise of Islamic groups and alleged brutality carried out against opposition figures since the last election in 2001.
Home ministry officials say the books were seized to verify whether they contain any anti-national statements.

This seems to be another worrying development intended to cover up extremist violence against minorities and the Awami league. The progressive way various States are acquiring increasing power to suppress anyone who dissents is deeply disturbing. I would love to live in a country where people treated one another with enough respect that police numbers could be reduced. I think a mark of good government is that the Police are not being increased in number all the time, in such a place eventually everyone becomes a policeman.

A ferry has sunk in Bangladesh, with 37 people so far confirmed dead.
Police say the MV Maharaj had about 200 people on board when it sank at 2300 (1700 GMT) on Saturday on the Buriganga river near the capital, Dhaka.

Some 150 people are missing. Hundreds of relatives are at the scene awaiting news as rescue efforts continue.

The boat reportedly sank during a storm, but ferries in Bangladesh are notoriously unsafe, with owners overloading them in defiance of laws.

This is a common tradegy in Bangladesh where ferries are more important than buses or trains for public transportation. These ferries are large local-made, jerry-built contraptions that are welded together without any real understanding of saftey. They capsize, they sink, they catch fire and every year thousands die in such death traps.

I can not understand why there is no a NGO/Government/Aid agency project to build affordable safe ferries that could be exchanged for dangerous ferries at subsidised prices. This project would also supply skill training and work for local ferry builders while also establishing a set of common safe designs for use as ferries. Once the standards and a local skill mix were established the project could exit from the scene.

Overloading would still be a risk, but at least safe designs would give people some security and confidence. Pubic awareness raising of the risks of overloading and proper supervision of the docks would also help reduce these risks.

I have been subjected to a number of repetitive attacks by men who have represented themselves as South Asians in their postings to the Punternet MB, or have assumed nicks with South Asian connotations.

I have always assumed that these men have taken particular offence to me because I refused to assume the role of subservient South Asian female. I have even been visited by South Asian men who have threatened to hurt me because I behave like a “white whore” and so I have dishonoured pure South Asian women. I have often received abusive telephone calls from men with South Asian accents.

It seems to me that there is a group of South Asian men who find a particular kudos in having sex with “white women” in that these women probably represent the “unobtainable” and “forbidden” women of the former Empire. Some of these men also seem to find it very distressing that I am accessible to “white men” and that I am only willing to engage with South Asian men on terms that are reflect my autonomy rather than any dependence on their largesse. There is certainly a common concern that I will supply sex to "white men" and one South Asian man became very annoyed that I refused to become his mistress in exchange for a bed-sit, food and pocket money, as that way I could remain inside South Asian society and not be available to "white men". He was horrified that I refused this generous offer and said I was not really Indian but a "white whore".

South Asian patriarchy is particularly obnoxious and is further complicated by notions of caste privilege. In India many of these men could demand that I supply sex to them for as long as they desire without payment, and without use of a condom, the fact that I can refuse them or contest their privilege is probably incredibly irritating.

This imported cultural context complicates any exchange I have with a South Asian man, I am fortunate to have some excellent South Asian clients but South Asian men are also the group that has proved the most problematic with regards to open hostility and aggression towards me. It is interesting that in some posts the facade of any dialogue will quickly break down into vicious insults and slurs.

Without knowledge of this social context it can be hard to understand the sub-text of the exchanges between myself and some South Asian men on the Punternet MB.

Motivated by religious, caste and gender privilege some South Asian men are apparently determined to remove my capacity to resist them and live independently of their social agenda.

In India and Bangladesh it not uncommon to throw acid in the faces of rebellious women who resist the sexual demands and power of such privileged men. Male privilege in South Asia assumes the right to severely punish irreligious and sacrilegious women. In particular, women such as me who do not submit to their demands for me to assume an lifestyle that does not make Indian cultural privileges available to non-Indian men.

Amid the hoard of wedding presents to be showered on Prince Charles and Camilla Parker-Bowles will be a little something from the famous lunch-box carriers of Mumbai. They are pooling money to buy a traditional Indian headdress for Prince Charles and a sari, blouse and bangles for Camilla for their 8 April wedding.

Two years ago, during a visit to India, Prince Charles met the white-capped tiffin carriers and came away impressed. Two years ago, during a visit to India, Prince Charles met the white-capped tiffin carriers and came away impressed.

Mumbai has an estimated 5,000 tiffin carriers - locally known as dabbawallahs- who deliver about 175,000 lunch boxes daily in a century-old tradition.

"Tiffin" is an old English word meaning midday snack.

Unforgettable meeting

The dabbawallahs collect lunch boxes from the suburban homes of nearly 200,000 customers and deliver them at their offices and factories at lunchtime.

A unique tracking system ensures that all the lunch boxes reach their rightful owners in time, earning a rating of 99.99% for precision and accuracy from Forbes magazine.

That's one error in eight million deliveries.

The tiffin carriers say that they can never forget their meeting with the Prince of Wales.

"It was because of his visit that people around the world came to know about our work. For the first time in our 114-year history, our achievements were noticed," says Raghunath Medge, chief of the tiffin carriers association.

"Prince Charles gave us so much importance. He chose to meet us instead of the high profile people."

So when they heard of the royal wedding from newspapers, the tiffin carriers decided to send presents.

It is considered auspicious in Maharashtra state to give a green nine-metre silk sari with a traditional zari border and green bangles to a bride to wish her luck.


I was very surprised when I arrived in the UK that no one seemed to know what "tiffin" was ! I think "tiffin" snacks are really good and homemade tiffin is the best. It was strange when I arrived in the UK to see how many things we still had in India had disappeared in the UK.

I try and remember what I imagined London would be like before I arrived, and so many strange things come to mind.

I was scared to go out by myself. I remember the first time I had to catch a bus and talk directly to the male driver to ask for a ticket. I had never spoken directly to a strange man before. I could hardly speak.

At home if a man came to my home to see my father and no one else was home he would talk to the wall and say, "wall, please ask the daughter when her father will be home?" and I would reply, "wall, please tell the man that my father will be home at 6pm." So when I arrived in London and saw how women lived in the UK I was amazed.

Now I am still a little shy and sometimes retiring, but I am much more assertive than I could ever have imagined before I came to the UK.

I now find many South Asian men to be incredibly intrusive when they meet me, and more than a little annoyed if I do not immediately assume a subservient stance before them, but I am not willing to submit to their demands, that seem to suggest that their fragile egos need to be propped up by demeaning women.

Bangladesh: At least one-third of the children, enrolled in primary education, dropped out before completing the five-year compulsory education, experts at a seminar said yesterday...

While one-third of the children are dropped out, another one-third remain illiterate though they continue their enrollment, said Dr Manzoor Ahmed of Brac University.

Many children especially Girls never even get into school. I remember my family was told by the School head that Hindi do not need to read and write and especially Hindu girls do not need to read and write so I was refused entry to school. I learnt to read and write in informal education projects. Once I could read and write my mother was able to bribe a school into accepting me.

Illiteracy is a terrible thing, if you can not read you are locked out of the world and locked into a life were everything is a mystery. You are lead around by rumours and the prejudice of the "educated".

Supporting the education of girls is so important because an educated girl can have valuable skills and maybe find work. If she is employable her family might not be so keen to marry her off when she is 12 or 13. She does have a job and is earning money she will not need such a large dowry.

Now it is known that I am living abroad my mother is receiving offers from many men to marry me without dowry, but I have told her that I will not marry any man as I am married to my Deity.

In an inhuman action, the Goa Government demolished the Baina red light area of Goa. Using the pretext of a High Court order, but going contrary to its letter and spirit, thousands of people, including sex workers, daily wage labourers, women and children were thrown out onto the streets in pouring rain, in a blatant attempt to grab prime real estate.

The "immoral" status of the sex workers made this despicable act "moral" as the destruction of these homes and workplaces "cleaned" up the area. The morality of the rich and the powerful is obscene. Not one woman volunteered to go to the rehabilitation centres that were actually detention camps surrounded with barbed wire and guards.

If I go to Goa and use my money to buy a nice home in a nice area I will be welcomed by the middle class. However I am thinking I should use some of my money to buy land where the sex workers can build new homes and workplaces.

The Sri Lankan couple reunited with their baby seven weeks after the tsunami separated them have spoken of their joy. Earlier Jenita told the Associated Press that if the couple got their son back, she would fulfil vows to smash 100 coconuts at a temple of the elephant-headed Hindu god, Ganesh.
In addition she was reported to have made a pledge to offer sweet rice to the warrior god, Murugan, and kill a cockerel for the goddess Kali.

I am going to smash a few coconuts myself to celebrate this happy event.

Netrakona: Ten-year-old Amir Ali was begging on the Nalitabari- Nakugao road at Hatipagar.
He started weeping when this correspondent asked why he is begging.
He said he was a student at Hatipagar Government Primary School. They had croplands and a house, but are pauper now. Bhogai river washed away everything. His sick father can not work.
There are several thousand families affected by flooding and erosion by the Bhogai river.
This correspondent talked to some of the affected people during a visit t the area on Friday. They said they do not want relief. They want reconstruction of the damaged Bhogai river embankment at Hatipagar.
The breach in Bhogai river embankment during last year's flood damaged crops on several lakh acres and covered those with sand sheets. Most of the affected lands in 25 villages in Nalitabari upazila are now uncultivable, they said.

I remember standing near the Padma River and watching as masses of earth and trees just disappeared into the river a whole orchard of Mangos disappeared in a few minutes. It is a really frightening experience it is as if the river is eating the land and trying to pull you in, it happens so fast.

Bangladesh has endured flood, famine and disease. Now it faces the largest mass poisoning in world history - from arsenic. Up to 80 million people may be affected, warns the World Health Organisation. One expert says the situation makes the Chernobyl disaster "look like a Sunday school panic". But this tragedy is neither an act of terrorism nor a disastrous industrial accident. It is the result of an initiative to provide Bangladeshis with fresh water that went terribly wrong.

Imagine that everytime you had a drink of water you were actually poisoning yourself ?

I remember being told by my mother which pumps were supposedly safe to drink from and which I should not drink from and each year more pumps became contanimated.

When I arrived in the UK I was scared to drink from a tap and I would tie cloths around the tap in the hope it would filter any impurities because I just could not believe that it was safe to drink.

Now I can afford to drink "Evian" whenever I want!

One of the reasons I would prefer to take my family to Goa rather than try and set up house in Kolkata is that I will never trust the water in Bengal.

A man allegedly killed his wife and stepdaughter apparently in a dispute over dowry at Dhalpur in city's Demra area early yesterday.
Demra police retrieved the bodies of Runa Akhter Rony, 20, and her daughter of above three years, Rupa, from their tin-roofed house near Narikelbagan Mosque at Dhalpur at about 3:30pm yesterday.
Police suspect that Abdus Sattar, a drill runner, hacked his wife to death and strangled Rupa with a rope. Police seized a blood stained knife from the spot.

This man wanted Tk 20 000.00 or about Euro 250 as a dowry from the family of his wife, when they couldn't pay he murdered the wife and her small daughter.

When Women are sent back from being trafficked abroad they are social outcasts so they must either remain in a shelterhome with bars on its windows and never go out or they might be married off to some man who would take then if offered a good dowry. This women was previously divorced or widowed and as such needed a big dowry to convince a man to marry her.

If I was sent back to my home town and it was known that I was not a virgin I might have to pay a man to marry me so I could have a social "existence" or I could be forced to live in a brothel. I would not be allowed to wear shoes if I went outside the brothel and if I wore shoes the police could arrest me.

Dowry related deaths are common place, but I am against dowry and that is why I want to take my sister to somewhere where she could get married without my family having to offer a dowry.

I write to you in a state of extreme grief. On January 27, my beloved husband, Shah AMS Kibria was taken away from me in a brutal grenade attack in Habiganj, Sylhet. Just last year the two of us celebrated our 50th Wedding Anniversary.
Even in my grief, so deep that it cannot be expressed in words, I know that I must now hold back my tears and devote myself to the task of ensuring that his killers do not escape unpunished. I will not rest until justice is done. cont...

I pray that Mrs Asma Kibria receives justice her husband was a fine man who sought to protect the poor and ensure democracy in Bangaldesh.

At least 200 garment workers were injured, ten of them seriously, when they were trampled while fleeing fire at three garment factories at Siddhirganj yesterday.

Fires in Garment Factories are the stuff of nightmares. I know women who are unable to go to work without chewing betel or hashish to calm their nerves.

It is often said that women have to use drugs to enable them to face working as prostitutes, but I think any work that causes anyone so much fear that they have to resort to drugs needs examination.

An Indian photographer has won the prestigious World Press Photo award for 2004 with a picture of an Indian woman grieving for a tsunami victim.
Arko Datta, who works for Reuters, took the photo in Cuddalore, Tamil Nadu, on 28 December.

When you grow up poor in South Asia, you always know that if you avoid the tradegy this time it is only a matter of time until you find yourself in the middle of some other misfortune. It is just that the dead poor do not usually make the news.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/4249223.stm

http://www.nswp.org/mobility/analysis.html (Beyond Boundaries)

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/4236123.stm


Dubai is one of the richest and most exciting places in the Middle East, often described as a moderate place free of extremism. However while the rich enjoy incredible lifestyles and tourists fill the souks, the most amazing building projects are going up everywhere built with indentured and forced labour.

The almost total disdain for the despised foreign poor let the local rich treat the foreign poor as non-human. They become unseen but without them homes would not be built or cleaned, nor would the camel races be quite as exciting.

When such attitudes are common it is not surprising that these attitudes also affect how such societies treat WGs, particularly foreign WG.

Budapest is the Porn Capital of Europe and is full of independent sex working women. The Hungarian, Czechs and Poles effectively disappeared from the ranks of trafficked women in the mid-nineties so exactly who are these East European women that everyone in London is so concerned about?

They will be the women who can not legally work in the UK because they are Russian, Ukrainian, Moldavian or Albanian, so they are tied to criminal pimps who they needed to bring them to the UK and who now takes advantage of their continuing vulnerability.

If as an EE WG you go to the police you will be deported or end up penniless in some shelter in legal limbo. If you stay with the pimp you might make some money or eventually find a way out. None of these are very useful options.

If you want to help EE WG vote for a political party that will allow them to travel and work in the UK without having to resort to a trafficking pimp.

Then the women who want to be sex workers will and the others can work somewhere else.

The law in the UK used to prohibit living off immoral earnings probably on the premise that selling sex was immoral; however UK society has changed and as such has changed its laws. Now the law clearly states that what is illegal is the controlling and gaining from prostitution. It is no longer illegal to live off the earning of a prostitute if you are not controlling her. The moral shift is away from the “prostitution” and towards a notion of coercive exploitation being the immoral or illegal act.

Therefore illegality in the UK and most of Europe has moved away from gaining from prostitution per se and has refocused on situations where someone is controlling and gaining from a prostitute.

However many people have not accommodated this new legality into their personal moral codes and still presume that the now legal act of living off the earnings of a prostitute without controlling her is still immoral.

The use of legal codes to define what is moral or ethical is fraught with danger as laws are often immoral and unethical or do not reflect a popular morality. Many places have numerous laws that many people would consider immoral and unethical.

We can talk about what is legal or illegal without having to allow lawmakers an unchallenged right to assign ethical or moral status to such acts.

Prostitution can be legal or illegal according to its geography and various legal codes. Prostitution can be moral or immoral according to differing social norms and cultural traditions. Interactions with any human being can be ethical or unethical according similar norms and traditions, but the vast majority of the world subscribes to certain inalienable human rights that would require that prostitutes be treated accordingly.

As such the present discussions regarding ethical interactions with sex workers reflect the same complexities that confront many of the debates regarding fair trade and the exploitation of other vulnerable workers.

Therefore there are no simple answers, but rather than seeking paternalistic protection from groups like the police I would prefer to have enforceable civil rights that would allow me resist prejudice and discrimination because of my gender, race, religion and profession.

Thousands of women have moved from their villages to the cities to become Garment Workers. Hundreds of these women have died in recent years in fires in factories that "locked" them in, if they were Brothel Workers there would be endless campaigns to fight for them to be freed from trafficking and sexual slavery.

Garment Workers earn $15-$20 per month working in dirty, dangerous and demeaning conditions, it seems like slavery to me.

Chances are the T-shirt you are wearing right now was made by someone like my mother.

Well paid sex work in the UK is so much better than slavery in such a garment factory.

I am glad I had the choice.

Ministers fear up to 40% of factories could go out of business, leaving 800,000 people unemployed, when the Multi-Fibre Agreement expires at the end of the year.

The people now being made unemployed are all female garment workers, there are no other jobs for women and they do not want to go back to their villages. My mother lost her job several months ago. She was earning about $20 per month.

The Government has known for years that the MFA was going to come to an end and yet nothing was done to deal with this issue.

If I was not in London selling sex, my family could be living on the streets of Dhaka or Kolkota. Just over two years ago I was declared officially malnourished, in fact my sister and I were both staving. She still suffers from some of the internal damage to her body that happened during that time.

I am just so grateful that we have some security because of my work, but for countless other families the situation must be hopeless.

I am hoping that Bangladesh will also benefit from this plan, but without good governance requirements that will address corruption; this opportunity will likely be wasted.

I am also hoping that fairer trade rules will appear that also allow the poor to be included in the potential benefits of globalisation, because so far it has not gone very well for the Bangladeshis.

However I think this is exciting news

I truly believe that poverty is a terrible problem and that debt forgiveness is completely necessary.

However I also believe that Globalisation will bring the experience of poverty to many people in Europe . I can not see how Europe can sustain such high wage levels for jobs that are essentially low skilled or jobs can easily be exported to low labour cost areas.

As competition increases Europe will firstly be unable to expand its productivity and economy because it will lack enough workers and so more and more businesses will relocate into other regions.

By keeping people out Europe the Europeans will be unable to afford their pensions and they will be unable to expand their economy, as such the jobs will go to where the people are.

What will be so strange in 20 or 30 years times is Europeans complaining that they can't get work permits to live and work in India and China.

I am receiving increasing attention because of my supposed tantric knowledge. This is a little intimidating as I have never thought of myself as being well educated regarding the tantric exercises, however I have two advantages with regards to my variation on the Chakra puja. The Chakra puja is usually practices by multiple couples where originally Noble men sought to resist the temptations of lower caste women. In seeking to resist or delay orgasm men can acquire heightened experiences, but it is then important to ensure that eventual orgasm is at the highest level. I always use either the 10th position of the perfumed garden in full suspension, which most women can not attain or the Kama wheel which again is difficult for many women to do for any extended period, to complete the Puja. As such I am able to ensure the resisting man is overcome by an irresistable orgasm of the highest level.

I always remember to circumabulant before my Shiva and Parvati Diety before any such session as it helps ensure correct piety before the puja.

It is when I read articles like this that I just shudder with fear and thank the Gods that my family are now in India.

I remember having the door of our small hut being broken in by Muslim extremists because someone had started a rumour that we had been cooking pork and that we had alcohol in our hut. They threatened to rape my mother, my sister and myself and if some Muslim neighbours had not remonstrated with them I am quite sure we would have been raped and killed. I was beaten three different times in the street by extremists for being an unclean Hindu, and I have been violently sexually assaulted by extremists wanting to teach me a lesson for being non-Muslim.

My mother was even offered money to convert to Islam so I could be made to convert and then I would be eligible for marriage to a Muslim.

I am also quite sure that Hindu extremists can be just as violent and hateful.

I pray that I never have to deal with such people ever again.

I realised today that I must work harder at my studies and make sure that I do not fall behind. Sometimes the more relaxed academic atmosphere here in the UK can lull me into a false sense of security and I start to forget about my academic commitments while I am concentrating on my Devadasi activities.

Now I have a budget I have realised that I do not have work so hard as I have been, and I can achieve my goals by maintaining a steady pace. I have plenty of enquiries from men wanting to visit me so everything seems to be going well.

I have also started going to a gym on a regular basis and I find regular exercise really helps me feel good about myself.

I feel very positive about the future and just want live peacefully while I do what I have to do.